End of the Road

113/158

2006-02-20T19:45:57Z

[1] I have eaten more than 5 meals a day.
[2] I have read a lot of books.
[3] I have been on some sort of varsity team.
[4] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.
[] I have been to Canada.

[5] I have been to Europe.
[6] I have watched cartoons for hours.
[7] I have tripped UP the stairs.
[8] I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
[9] I have been snowboarding/skiing.

[10] I have played ping pong.
[11] I swam in the ocean.
[12] I have been on a whale watch.
[13] I have seen fireworks.
[14] I have seen a shooting star.
[15] I have seen a meteor shower.
[] I have almost drowned.
[16] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.
[17] I have listened to one cd over & over & over again.
[18] I have had stitches.
[19] I have been on the honor roll.
[] I have had frostbite.
[] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there
[20] I have stayed up til 2 doing homework/projects.
[] I currently have a job.
[21] I have been ice skating.
[22] I have been rollerblading.
[23] I have fallen flat on my face.
[24] I have tripped over my own feet.
[25] I have been in a fist fight.
[26] I have played videogames for more than 3 hours straight.
[27] I have watched the power rangers.
[] I do attend Church regularly.
[28] I have played truth or dare.
[29] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[30] I have already had my 17th birthday.
[] I've lost weight since one year ago.
[31] I've called someone stupid. And meant it.
[32] I've been in a verbal argument.
[] I've cried in school.
[] I've played basketball on a team.
[] I've played baseball on a team.
[] I've played football on a team.
[] i've played soccer on a team.
[] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[] I've played softball on a team.
[] I've played volleyball on a team.
[] I've played tennis on a team.
[33] I've been on a track team.
[34] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[35] I've bungee jumped.
[36] I've climbed a rock wall.
[37] I've lost more than $20.
[38] I've called myself an idiot.
[39] I've called someone else an idiot.
[] I've cried myself to sleep.
[40] I've had (or have) pets.
[] I've owned a spice girls cd.
[] I've owned a britney spears cd.
[41] I've owned an N*Sync cd.
[42] I've owned a backstreet boys cd.
[43] I've mooned someone.
[44] I've sworn at someone in authority.
[45] I've been in the newspaper.
[46] I've been on TV.
[] I've been to Hawaii.
[47] I've eaten sushi.
[] I've been on the other side of a waterfall.
[48] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
[49] I've watched all of the Harry Potter movies.
[] I've watched all of the Rocky movies.
[50] I've watched the 3 stooges.
[51] I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica.
[52] I've watched Looney Tunes.
[] I've been stuffed into a locker.
[53] I've been called a geek.
[54] I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade.
[55] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.
[] I've hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs.
[] I've hugged my dad within the past 24 hours.
[56] I've met a celebrity/music artist.
[57] I've written poetry.
[] I've been arrested.
[58] I've been attracted to someone much older than me.
[] I've been tickled till I've cried.
[59] I've tickled someone else until they cried.
[60] I've had/have siblings.
[61] I've been to a rock concert.
[62] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it.
[63] I've been in a play.
[64] I've been picked last in gym class.
[65] I've been picked first in gym class.
[66] I've been picked in that middle-range in gym class.
[] I've cried in front of my friends.
[67] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages.
[68] I've played Halo 2.
[69] I've freaked out over a sports game.
[] I've been to Alaska.
[] I've been to China.
[70] I've been to Spain.
[] I've been to Japan.
[71] I've had a fight with someone on AIM.
[72] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face.
[73] I've had serious converstations on any IM.
[74] I've forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me.
[75] I've been forgiven.
[76] I've screamed at a scary movie.
[77] I've cried at a chick flick.
[78] I've watched a lot of action movies.
[79] I've screamed at the top of my lungs.
[] I've been to a rap concert.
[] I've been to a hip hop concert.
[] I've lived in more than 2 houses.
[80] I've driven on the highway
[81] I've driven more than 40 miles in a day
[] I've been in a car accident
[82] I've done drugs.
[] I've been homesick.
[83] I've thrown up
[84] I've puked all over someone.
[] I've been horseback riding.
[85] I've filled out more than 10 myspace surveys.
[] I've spoken my mind in public.
[86] I've proved someone wrong
[87] I've been proved wrong by someone.
[88] I've broken a leg.
[] I've broken an arm.
[89] I've fallen off a swing.
[90] I've swung on a swing for more than 30 mins straight.
[91] I've watched Winnie the Pooh movies.
[92] I've forgotten my backpack when I've gone to school.
[93] i've lost my backpack.
[] I've come close to dying.
[] I've seen someone die.
[94] I've known someone who has died.
[95] i've wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.
[] I've done modeling.
[96] I've forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings.
[97] I've taken something/someone for granted.
[98] I've realized how good my life is.
[99] I've counted my blessings.
[100] I've made fun of a classmate.
[101] I've been on a date.
[102] I've been asked out by someone and I said no.
[103] I've asked someone on a date and been turned down.
[104] i've slapped someone in the face.
[105] I've been skateboarding.
[106] i've been backstabbed by someone I thought was a friend.
[107] i've lied to someone to their face.
[108] i've told a little white lie.
[109] i've taken a day off from school just so I don't go insane.
[110] I've fainted
[111] I've had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not.
[112] I've pushed someone into a pool.
[113] I've been pushed into a pool

Now count how many things you checked and repost this, subject being, "I have lived through (number)/158 things"

deadend_drive @ 2006-01-10T19:57:00

2006-01-11T00:58:05Z

I love marijuana.

deadend_drive @ 2005-12-30T00:31:00

2005-12-30T05:32:31Z

I cleared a six foot bong tonight. Hail.

deadend_drive @ 2005-12-29T17:23:00

2005-12-29T22:29:50Z

I guess that it's time for an update.

This vacation hasn't been all too bad. I've seen all the old friends and had some great times. For anyone who hasn't heard, I'm out of Keene. I'm not going back until next year maybe. So Southern CT, here I come. It won't be all too bad. Aside from missing Keene and everyone ther like crazy for a semester, I think I will manage. Hell, somehow I'm getting a car out of all this. But Trisha and Josh, I'm probably going to miss you two the most, so you better fucking come visit me.

Tonight, Pinto, The Meesh, and I are going to Dwayne's and then over to the Catwalk to celebrate Pinto's being home and his birthday. Boo-yah!

I don't know what else to write. Uhh..

deadend_drive @ 2005-12-16T01:28:00

2005-12-16T06:38:43Z

Just an update from exam week. I'm smoking way too much. I can't tell if I like it or not. I think I do.

So Craig and I smoked the ayahuasca shit on Tuesday night. Let me tell you, that was the best high of my life. I don't think that I ever felt better high that night than I ever had before. I couldn't stop dancing. It was crazy. I felt like such an ass. We smoked again last night, but it was only Craig and I.. because someone had to "study". Pfft.. who studies for exams?

Speaking of exams, I think I did pretty well. Psychology is the only one that I am worried about. But whatever, I don't need it for my major anyways.

Tonight is the first night home. Boring as shit. I watched The History Channel all night, which is nothing unusual, but I wasn't high this time. I think I might go to bed, but I don't really feel like it.

Goodnight.

deadend_drive @ 2005-12-12T16:32:00

2005-12-12T21:42:36Z

They're here! My salvia and ayahuasca are here! This shit is going to get me so fucked up, it's crazy.

Friday night, I bought some pot brownies from the kids next door. Downed the two, got dressed, and went to the dance with the girls. Let me tell you, I was tripping balls that whole night. I really don't think there was ever a time when I really know what exactly was going on. All I know is that at one point, Joe and I were screaming at each other singing some song. Becky and I left and played in the snow. Laura and Joe came back and we started watching Titanic and I fell asleep, started snoring, then left.

Oh yeah, did I mention that Brad and I slept through a fire alarm in Carle at 4 in the morning and got written up for it? Yeah.. gay.

Craig's girlfriend came up Saturday so we didn't really do much. Josh and I ended up sleeping in Laura's room again after shooting the shit for 3 hours in the lobby.

Last night, I was baked out of my mind. Craig and I went in for an 8th. Trisha, Jess, and Laura all took some hits. We were so fucked up. I ate so much food. I really can't believe how much I ate.

I cannot wait to smoke this Mexican shit tomorrow after my final. My 8 in the morning psychology final. Balls.

WARNING: Long Emo Entry

2005-12-09T11:54:12Z

I don't know what I am feeling right now. It's about 6:15 in the morning. I have been up since about 11 this morning, and I will probably be up until 2 or 3 on Saturday morning.

I finished my laundry around 5:30, and I started feeling weird. I noticed it was snowing, so I decided to go for a walk in the snow. I walked outside Carle, and I noticed that no one else had entered or exited the building since the snow started. And it was so white outside. I felt like I was the first person to enter another world when I stepped into that snow. It was beautiful.

I started walking, and I saw the people starting to clear the snow so everyone could get to class in the morning. And I wondered if any other students were awake right now, doing the same thing that I was doing. I took the long way to Redfern Pond because they started clearing snow and I didn't want to walk where there wasn't any. I was standing on the edge of the pond, and I saw a girl on another edge. And I looked at her. And she looked at me. And we stared for a few seconds, then I waved. And she waved back. And you know that feeling you get when it feels like you have known someone your whole life? Yeah, that's exactly what I felt. It really made me smile.

As I was walking, I thought about all the fun times I have with my friends at home, and how goofy we all are. One time really stuck out. It was one night, two summers ago, when Boulay, Amanda, and I were driving in West Haven screaming Justin Timberlake out of the windows of my car. I was driving so fast, but I didn't care. Neither did Boulay or Amanda. I just felt invincible for that moment. I just felt like nothing could hurt me and ruin that moment, as queer as it was. I think that is why I love that song so much, even now.

Then I thought of Erica. As much as the girl bothered me, and no matter how many silly fights we got in, she was still the only one that really ever understood me. She really did love me. I just wish I could have realized that sooner. I miss you.

I also peed my name in the snow. That made me giggle. Tehe.

When I got back to Carle, my footprints were still the only ones. I know that when I go to breakfast in the morning, all the whiteness of everything will somehow be dirty and old, even through that is less than two hours from now. But it really makes me feel good knowing that I was the first person, maybe even the only one, to see it like that.

I have a history exam at 9 that I am really pumped for. I think I really know my stuff. But I said that last time, and I got a 66. I was really mad at myself for that one. I hope I do better this time, I really do.

I don't know what I am doing tonight. I am going to that formal party thing, but that only goes until 11. But no matter what it is, I know it will be fun. I love my friends here. I can't believe that I ever considered transferring. I know that some of them are probably going to read this, and some of them are never going to know that I ever wrote it. But thanks for always being there.

I don't know what I was hoping to accomplish with this entry, but whatever it was, I think I did it. I know I'm still not going to bed. I might go for another walk, the sun is going to come up soon. Maybe I will even have some pictures later, who knows. But anyways, thank you to those who listened to my "venting", although I wouldn't really call it that. Goodnight everyone.

Tehe

2005-12-05T00:56:01Z

Well this weekend was fun. I slept. I ate. I got high. I ate more. I slept. I ate. I got high. I ate. I got high. I ate. I got high. I ate. I slept. I ate. I slept.

I notice a trend. This was a fun-ass weekend.

deadend_drive @ 2005-11-27T02:03:00

2005-11-27T07:15:20Z

This weekend, was awesome. I got to see everyone that I wanted to see, except Michelle. And I am kind of upset about that. I didn't get to see my best friend, but I saw people I have only talked to once in my life.

Tuesday night I stayed at home.

Wednesday was quite a day. Too late for the pep rally. Hung out with Dan, Stash, and Laura all day. Saw Rent. Seriously one of the best movies ever. Also, I was completely jealous that Trisha got to see Bright Eyes!!

Turkey Day was fun. I stuffed my ass full and then went to the Athenian with Michlle that night and ate some more.

I was sooo high last night. I smoked with Kelly, Marlena, and Ant. Holy shit, it tasted like key lime pie. Total buzzkill though, I had to leave early because everyone was too tired. Pfft.. losers.

Tonight was a night to remember. Woke up at 10:30 this morning with the worst cotton mouth of my life. Did yard work all day. I go out to buy some salvia, and my place is sold out. So I go to Dwayne's. After a few beers, Billy Ku calls and says he needs a ride. I'm buzzed, but I can still drive. So Rick, Becky, and I decide to pick him up. And what do we end up in? A DUI check. Managed to get out of that. We get Bill and forget the check was there.. so we drive through it again. Almost didn't get so lucky the second time. We get to Dwayne's and I get a call from a kid I met yesterday. He needs a ride for a deal. A half hour later, I have two kids in my car and two pounds of E. What a fucking sketchy night.

Tomorrow is back to Keene. I am so excited. I am getting back late, and there is so much that I have to do. But whatever, I am pumped to see everyone again.

Bad entry, I know. I will have a better one tomorrow. Later people.

Stolen from Trisha

2005-11-13T20:26:25Z

Start with 100%, and take away 1% for everything you've done/that's happened to you on this list. Put the number you are left with in the subject line EXAMPLE... if you did ONE thing you would put 99%

Smoked.
Drank alcohol.
Cried when someone died.
Been drunk.
Had sex.
Been to a concert.
Gotten a handjob/fingered.
Recieved oral sex.
Been verbally sexually harassed.
Verbally sexually harassed somebody.
Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
Been to prom.
Cried at school.
Gotten lost in a WalMart or a department store.
Went streaking.
Given a lap dance.
Had someone of the opposite sex in your room
Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
Kissed a stranger.
Hugged a stranger.
Went scuba diving.
Driven a car.
Gotten an xray.
Hit by a car.
Had a party
Done drugs
Played strip poker.
Got paid to strip for someone.
Ran away from home.
Broken a bone.
Eaten sushi.
Bought porn.
Watched porn.
Made porn.
Had a crush on someone of the same sex.
Been in love.
Frenched kissed.
Laughed so hard you cried.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Laughed yourself to sleep
Been Stabbed
Shot a gun.
Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
Watched an animal die.
Watched a person die.
Had sex and/or messed around somewhere with atleast one person present.
Pranked somebody
Put somebody in the hospital.
Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
Kissed somebody of the same sex.
Dressed punk.
Dressed goth.
Dressed preppy.
Been to a motocross race.
Avoided somebody.
Been stalked.
Stalked someone.
Met a celebrity.
Played an instrument.
Ridden a horse.
Cut yourself.
Bungee jumped.
Ding dong ditched somebody.
Been to a wild party.
Got caught stealing something.
Kicked a guy in the balls.
Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
Went out with your friend's crush.
Got arrested.
Been pregnant.
Babysat.
Been to another country.
Started your house on fire.
Had an encounter with a ghost.
Donated your hair to cancer patients.
Been asked out by someone that you never though you'd to be asked out by.
Cried over a member of the opposite sex
Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 3 months.
Sat on your ass all day.
Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
Had a job.
Gotten cut from a sports team.
Been called a whore.
Danced like a whore.
Been mistaken for a celebrity.
Been in a car accident.
Been told you have beautiful eyes.
Been told you have beautiful hair.
Raped somebody.
Danced in the rain.
Been rejected.
Walked out of a restaurant without paying.
Punched/slapped someone in the face

29%
I'm badass to the core and you know it.

REAL UPDATE

So Michelle and Amanda came up this weekend, which was pretty much the coolest thing ever. It was just supposed to be Michelle, but Amanda was an excellent surprise. It was basically the best weekend that I have had here yet. They met most of the guys from my floor, all of which kick ass. We just bullshitted and partied all day and night. I can't complain. Although I was somehow the only one (out of Brad, Amanda, and Michelle) that ended up sleeping in my room tonight. Haha, I love this place.

deadend_drive @ 2005-11-12T01:53:00

2005-11-12T06:55:03Z

What the fuck? I am completely sober on a Friday night. And last Friday, I was only a little bit tipsy. What is going on with this shit?

On a lighter note, I just watched a David Bowie movie. It may have been the biggest waste of time in quite a while. I know it would have been so much better if I was tripping on something, but I wasn't. Speaking of which, I think I am getting some weed from Shawn tomorrow. He has really good shit.

Who knows what happens tomorrow? MICHELLE COMES UP!!! I am seriously so excited. I haven't seen her since my birthday. Tomorrow night will totally make up for tonight. Especially because I have over 20 beers.

But I gotta go, time to play Jackie in dirty scrabble. Later peeps.

deadend_drive @ 2005-11-03T16:55:00

2005-11-03T22:00:12Z

Well, I skipped both of my classes today. I think I had homework due in English, but I'm not sure. Whatever.

Today feels like a Saturday. I don't know why. I think the only thing to do now is drink, because that's what to do on a Saturday night.

I talked to Michelle today. She is coming up next weekend!! I'm so excited. I haven't seen her in like.. a month. And that means I can finally show her what Wilson Street is. Maybe she'll get lucky and get her wish haha.

I hate being sick. But at least it isn't the weekend. I think I might go down to WestConn on Saturday for Michelle Norbeau's birthday. I gotta see what I can do about that.

Mmm.. I really like her a lot. This is awesome.

deadend_drive @ 2005-10-30T20:13:00

2005-10-31T01:15:31Z

I AM BACK TO USING MY LIVEJOURNAL

Okay, so I don't really know what to write. I am sitting in my girlfriend's room right now. I'm on her computer. She is great <3

College is pretty awesome. I basically love it here. My grades aren't too great but I still have the rest of the semester to bring them up.

I will have more later.